I don't know how it is possible to carry on living in poverty. A change is almost certain to alleviate the pain. So much wants yet hardly fulfilling any. I'm sure there has been worse.
It is a challenge to go through such hard times but the pain can make one more determined to get all the good things in life. Not through dubious means, though. Difficult times make the mind stronger. Ultimately, it is achieving the goal you set and making life better than before.
A new chapter in life begins. I'm not sure if it will be better than before but I need to try and turn the tables around. And what more appropriate than to put in more effort in all that I do. I guess a notebook is an essential. I hardly remember details.

How can anyone survive without any love in his life? Love has always been an intrinsic part of our lives. In fact, we are all products of love in the very first place.
Of course, there is more than just romantic love. For instance, there is the love that is shared between platonic friends and the love within a family. That said, I'd still be skeptical if someone told me he could live without the romantic kind of love. Each type of love has its different functions and without any, our lives would be incomplete.
So how does it actually feel to be without the romantic kinda love? While I appreciate the fact that I had more time to spend with my family and friends, there is inevitably a tinge of loneliness lingering in my life. Somehow, it doesn't look like it'd hurt to have a special someone. In fact, there could be more merits.
And hopefully, the year of the Ox will be more fulfilling because I know I need something more to make my life even better.

nobody shd care.

im gone.

byebye world.

by the time you get this msg, it's gonna be too late. Be happy for me. This is euthanasia.

dont feel sorry when it's already too late.

hope my decision will be respected.

The last class outing I had was almost a year ago with 1S20. It was memorable. We had lots of fun satiating our vocracious appetite at Seoul Garden Causeway Point. I could remember Melissa, Stephanie, Xianzu and I shared a table. Xianzu took photos of burnt watermelons! Stephanie couldn't finish her food and told the auntie that the meat were all fats. It was mayhem. It was ludicrous but we all enjoyed ourselves. Anyone still remember how it felt like having 10-odd people squeezing to take neoprints?
05S54,together with  our fantastic CT Mr Daniel Yip, went to the same place today. It was the first class outing since Mr Yip became our CT. Everyone quickly settled down and got eating as soon as we reached the place. The climax of the day was probably when our class welfare representative, Christopher and Mr Yip brought a cake to celebrate the birthdays of our very own March babies:Sakunthala, Shabila and Peiyi! The guys were gorging themselves. We kept filling our plates with meat and more meat! I must say that it was almost impossible to stand up straight after wolfing down so much food. There wasn't burnt watermelons this time but somebody tried to barbeque ice cream! It was repulsive but nevertheless, harmless fun. I guess such an incident is common in Seoul Garden. People just love doing silly things hehe!

05s54 Class Outing March 2006


1s20 Class Outing, March 2005

It has never been easy for me to wake up every morning to go school. I hate assignments. I loathe lectures. I dread tutorials. Moreover, there are some people that I just abominate.

Last year, the class had three different groups. One comprised of five people. The other two had six each. The class would be divided into these groups whenever we were in the canteen. There were eight seats along with every table in the canteen. It was a perfect arrangement. There were enough seats for people and their bags. This year, the class population shrunk. Everytime the class goes to the canteen, it's like musical chair. Everyone wants to crowd around a table. Not everyone actually. Four girls in my class kindly opted out and share a table amongst themselves. The rest, like voracious beasts,  want a share in everything. They think that 10 people can share 8 seats. Ridiculous? My sentiments exactly. Those nitwits.

The guys in my class usually move together. The five of us would share a table in the canteen. This year, the intruders start invading into our territory progressively. However, what happened today was a complete new story. I placed my bag on the seat and went to the Gents. To my surprise, my bag was placed on another seat at another table when I came back. The bitch took my bag and put it on another seat just so that she could have that seat. I had to be alone the entire break because of her own selfish reasons. And the things that she did to hurt others are beyond anyone's tolerance. Snatching girlfriend? What a slut.

Oi, fucker. U better watch out. The more I try to tolerate your nonsense, the further u are pushing your limits. Wad is it that will remove u from Earth? U are obviously nothing but trouble. I pity your parents. They have to endure 17years of nonsense from you. Nevertheless, they should be punished for bringing you to life. You think u look so good and have so many friends. Do u even realise that almost the entire class hates u? Why is it that your fucking face is so thick? You still stick with the people who has outrightly expressed their displeasure. You think that you are so great just because you have a "friend" from the USA. yeah, wait til she dumps u. u'll be made a laughing stock. get a life biatch. this shall be my last warning to u. one more nonsense and u are gonna get it. don't blame me.

I don't know if I'm the one for you in this life. I can't help hearing my voice calling your name even when I'm trying so hard not to look in your eyes. Maybe I have fallen in love with you...
Well tonight, maybe this time I can hear you breathe. It's alive to see you smile with those tears in your eyes.They may say that you're just a person in this spinning world. In my heart you're like the world to me

I can't describe how I'm feeling deep inside. So much more than I can say with your touch it feels so right. Oh my, you're so near all the time in this place for I know in my heart I'll never let you go in this lifetime. Do you know why oh baby? Cos you're just so beautiful to me.

Touch my hand and feel my heart, hold me close and you'll find me. You'll find me. You're so beautiful to me ..